Undo the Past

1. Once, on traveling with my granny in a bus, I had the window seat and my granny the aisle one. Somebody called me from the other side. I spoke to the person and settled back into my seat. When my granny asked me what it was about, I replied rather harshly “None of your business!” in my native tongue. It did sound very harsh! I must have been in my 4^th standard then.
2. Being very mad at my mum one day on some very silly thing that she wouldn’t do, I was mumbling something and she asked “Say what?” and I yelled back at her “Why don’t u get a hearing aid for that damned ear!!” Only in my mother tongue it sounded abominable. I must have been in my 6^th standard then.
3. My brother – 6 years younger to me, used to have his lunch with me in my class during the initial years of his schooling. We usually sat opposite to each other while eating. One day, while he bent down to pick up his food, his hair accidentally dipped into my bowl, which I was holding in my hand. My friend exclaimed, “ Yew, how are you going to eat that?” I got upset and pinched both of my brother’s legs so hard that it turned black and stayed that way for a week! He was only a kid for God’s sake! I must have been in my 8^th standard then.
4. That day I was late returning from my computer class. My dad had gotten worried and had taken an alternate route searching for me. I came home just after he had left and never bothered to go after him and bring him back home. He came back 45 minutes later and I never even bothered to apologize! I know he was very hurt by that. I was in my 2^nd year of college then.

I know, undoing the past is out of the question. All I wish is for a chance to go back and apologize!